Name : Thomas Hell a.k.a.
Missy Hannalya
DOB : Dec 4th
HT : Tampin, NS
CL : Cyberjaya, Sel
Ocp : Student
Fld : IT
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Saturday, July 28, 2007
I'm all alone now here... now at this moment... even moments before... felt like I've been deserted... like hope is no more... life is no more... no one cares...
The world seemed collapse the very moment she says she can't make it for the movie... I tried to not think about it... I watched anime to keep my thought away from it... but it still feel lonely... I asked others if they can go with me... no one is free... no one more to ask... I felt deserted... even as if GOD himself had left me to be a pity soul... relying on him don't yield no nothing... was this his plot to make me a gay? I find myself wanting to be with him more... when he's so far off... I can't reach to him physically...
The lousy ugly noisy singing voice from the MTR right in front of me is getting at my nerves...
Life is as if no more hope any more... people just don't know how I feel... even if they do... they don't care... even if they care... they are not able or is unwilling to do anything to help... why can't I gain happiness like those around me... only making me jealous... and wanting more...
I've thought so much that I know not what had I thought about nor had I been thinking and wanting to think... I don't feel like working...
Looking at people passing by...
While admitting my disability to chat her... I wanted to keep it cool... but with the movie cancelled and watching my favourite show all alone... it's same as living in a lonely island...
I want to cry... feel like crying... but no one knows... no one will...
Stupid person who just potted himself is really making a seriously disturbing sounds to my mood...
Just when I start to find life... find path... find a way to walk... everything just have to come fallen apart... is this what GOD want of us... depending of him and never walk alone since human are cocky and once they realised that they can live their own life that they will forget about GOD???
YOU are making me think this way man... I blame YOU for everything... so I think I better just leave you and be back to my own little world of free thinker and you just don't exist no more...
yes... everything is because of you... who else is able to do such thing? only you... blame the devils? nah... they are my friend... I should just do some crime... end up in jail and live the rest of my life inside without having to care for any other things outside...
I don't feel like going for dinner tomorrow... after being so eager... it just feels like it's not even worthy to have that dinner any more... Sleeping is not going to do me good... Playing game only will get me temporary away... praying is totally getting no where... killing myself is the only way... yeah... I better go for that path... it will be the best kind of feeling... who cares... no one cares... even if they do... they cannot be in my shoes and taste what I had been though... being useless and unsuccessful... being forgotten and leaved behind...
... ... ... ŦĦÃÎЧ &
& Mï$$Ñ
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