Name : Thomas Hell a.k.a.
Missy Hannalya
DOB : Dec 4th
HT : Tampin, NS
CL : Cyberjaya, Sel
Ocp : Student
Fld : IT
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
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Early morning sun show itself little by little, climbing out from the misty night of darkness to burn out all that are good... or should it be evil? Nah... who cares... as long as it don't burn my back side will be sufficiently under don't care condition...
After 20 years of living in his world of cruelty, sadness and loneliness, I feel that it is time for me to start writing my current and the past. Throughout the life, I have been able to come out with so many thoughts and thinking which turn my life and the way I live of who I am now.
Since afer born, I do not have the good sense of memorizing things unless there is or are things that is unforgetable. I have poor memories which until today that it still exist and cause me some problem.
Life before kindergarten
It is the time period which I am a naughty person.
Remembere once when I was not permitted to take picture in a place and I turn out to be angry and wish to hit my father for not permitting me to take picture siting in the artilery.
Then again, I done numerous bad things towards everyone around me making myself a "KING" (Which claimed by others that I am one) like not wanting to share my food / drinks with my siblings, throwing things when I am angry for the reason that I am not allowed to do things.
Life in kindergarten - Naughty, Cheat and Lie
I am still seriously naughty during that period of life which I am always punished for my acts of stupidity and idiotic.
It was the hardship of life with envy and anger where I with my brother is the only one being canned for wrong doing and my sisters always get things better then us.
I first cheated in life during this period. It was during a exam which I do no remember which year of kinddegarten I was in and for what purpose the exam is for. I was sitting next to a guy and both of us do no know how to write a word. I do not have the knowledge of cheating until then, the time he pull out the text book and show me the word. It was then found out by the teacher and she asked me if I am also cheating... my answer... no... I seriously do not know why I answer that... maybe because I was afraid of punishement and I lied to save myself from being punish. I do could not recall what had happened to him, but I feel sorry to him not knowing who he is...
Life in primary - Naughty, Cheat, Lie, DayDreaming, Love, Care and Like
It is the time of life where I get to experiance friendship for real.
I am yet naughty as I received the most canning in this period of life. I remember I was canned for not doing well it test or exams.
For seriously when my brain sart to develops, I start to experiance day dreaming and was seriously addicted with it a the fantasy world are far more better then the reality of cruelty and bored.
I lied on many accounts to save myself from numerous punishments which I do not managed to recall any of them.
Love and Like started in this age and it was given only to girls. I have no idea of what are those then, but I know that I have a feeling that I liked someone.
Life in secondary - Cheat, Lie, DayDreaming, Sleep, Crazy, Love, Care, Like and Think
I first started to know how to think before I reach secondary but I only realize that I know how to think during early secondary. Not thinking in studying or fantasy world, but mature way of thinking things and taking things seriously into account.
On the same time, I have developed craziness which formed my personaliy of life until now. I do things to the point of extreme which at times disguss poeple around me. I personate myself as a clown tha annoy and funny.
I grown tired of life and know how to feel bored for classes and start to sleep in classes where still goes on now.
I tried on numerous accounts to get a girl friend during this life period but sadly due to my acting and my formed peronality that disguss others, especially girls.
Life in universiy till current - Cheat, Lie, WildDream, Sleep, Crazy, Idiotic, Stupidity, Love, Care, Like, CriticalThink, PhilosophyThinking and PossibilityThinking
Life in this stage till now is based on the characteristic of who I am in the secondary. I curve myself so bend that I truely think that life is not how one act but how one receive others. My life had been out of true friends that truely accept me for who I am until after a period of time.
I am still on persuit of girls but poeple that do no know me are yet disguss by who I am and yet they have no initiative on getting to know me better...
I'm tired of typing already... Who cares who I am as long as I am I who is I only I that is I which is I am what I am...
One get no love when one does not love oneself... ŦĦÃÎЧ &
& Mï$$Ñ
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